Life

Life at present is a stand still. Everything remains a stalemate. Projects aren't progressing, studies aren't developing. The friends around me are having more and more problems, stuff that I never even knew about. Now that they have finally told me, I feel useless since I could do nothing to help. All I can offer are idealistic solutions to questions that I myself cannot answer were I to be in the same situations.
Studies suck. I hate hitting the books. Now I am supposed to catch up, but I'd rather play games. However, please don't be mistaken. I don't really enjoy playing as much as most people would like to believe. It is because I am too bored and xian to do anything else, that this becomes the only other alternative.
It is time to do something about my life. I have been living a meaningless existence. My life has not been my own, and I seem unable to make my own decisions. It is time to do so. I am a guy, and I am 21 after all. Damn... I can't be content just listening to and following all that I am told. Next thing, appearance. Apparently, as I have been told, I seem to be more chatty, livelier, and happier. Is this a facade on my part? Or have I really been able to supress all other emotions into the deep recess of my mind? Just cut my hair again, something shorter so that people wun say that I look old. My sis made me do my nose and eyebrows today, and I complied, believe it or not. Sigh... wonder what I get myself into sometimes... nvm, doesn't matter.