Courtesan and Zither player

It never works the way you want it,
and what better way to find it out,
than from a movie;
a beautiful one at that.

I swoon once again at the touching story,
to the romance I give a wistful sigh,
I scoff the feelings of jealousy displayed,
and yet,
am I not guilty of that too?

This time is really getting testy,
and only a handful of days gone past.
with my hand I try to grasp,
what my mind cannot hope to fathom.

When u pop up,
my heart does a leap,
after so long do I see u,
but with indifference do u look upon me.

I wish I knew what I am doin,
I wish I knew what to do,
I wish I knew why I write this,
I wish I can no longer type this,
but like the endless spin of time,
my life revolves around it,
too bad for me; my character,
sensitivity at its best.