Life as it is

Gave it a shot,
and shot myself instead.
Put my thoughts aside,
instead I placed them right inside.
Tried to kick the feelings away,
but here I find they are to stay.
Displayed my intentions,
presented suggestions,
but in the end all is naught,
never will I tie the knot.

haha, don't I just sound pitiful,
once again I am back to this state,
one that I regret having to be in,
one I have hated being in,
but yet I am always in it...
Like damn sad lah....