Sighez

Well, yes, I'm sighing again... because I dunno what to do? Back to the drawing board obviously... Nothing has changed the Christmas gift, and I wonder if I was really stupid enough to think that such a present would have been enough to garner a change. Well, she is happy, that I know, but I'm seriously unsure... I mean I was hoping for a change, just any change be it big or small, just to show that it isn't 'wasted'. Of course, every second and every cent is worth spending on her. Oh my, I sit back and look at the situation and I realise how stagnant this can be, and how slow she is... I mean, maybe I'm slow too, but I am also afraid to read her actions cos I might read it wrongly and make fatal mistakes instead. Damn... I dunno what the hell am I supposed to be doin now either... she's always so busy, now that I think of it, I dun think she might be able to have a relationship cos she's too busy. We can hardly have a decent conversation without her having to go off to do something. Then now... sigh... After telling her that I originally wanted to ask her to watch The Phantom of the Opera with me and that I knew she was going to watch with her friends already, she asked me to join her and her friend. Is that just a friendly gesture? Or is that a somewhat good sign? Well, better not to read right? Supposed to go post Christmas shopping with her, but well, a friend of hers returned from America and wants to go to Marina to fly kite. Hee, how fun... If only one day I can ask her to go fly kite with me... how traditionally romantic? or is that just sappy? Ha ha... I'm not sure if I should be thinking straight right now as well... seems like my mind is preventing me from any form of logical thinking. Then again, who said love is logical right? Hmmm, I seem quite apt in contradicting myself, guess that's what happens if u miss someone. Ha ha, did I just say that? Oh, yes I did! haha. I guess I really am starting to miss her already... Damn how long to wait till I see her again?