My surroundings are not such tat
I can think of wat I need to do
of what I need to think about
of what I can have ,...

In seek of treasure

Sometimes I wish I could hate you,
I wish I would not care;
To love to hate,
to hate to love,
which is worse,
Oh please do share.

As time ticks by,
the waves of the sea ebb away,
but memories, woe,
they do not go;
They stick to you,
and away they will not flow.

A simple form of encouragement,
an acknowledgement in kind.
Are they so hard to mutter,
or didn't it cross your mind.

I laugh at this spiral;
I've entered it again,
laugh with me you people,
give me strength within this pain.

Always seeking,
never finding;
I think I need another treasure map,
I need to find myself,
to find you,
and to find You.

In respite

Change
not for better but for worse
I change, u change
blame time? blame surroundings
temper
suppressed for long
released in a blast
triggered by unreasonableness
or is it unreasonableness alone
selfishness
a part of human nature?
or infection from the environment?
People adapt
they enclose themselves
but to what end?
Pointless to explain,
pointless to deny,
pointless to continue,
pointless to...?
Sensitivity loss,
you think?
I am the same in sensitivity,
jus not the same in caring;
to care is so parse
He who was once called sweet,
is now called sour and bitter.
So what then caused this change?
Nature, my dear friends, nature.
No appreciation shown in the past
now has caused to loneliness to last
and with this loneliness comes the bittersweet memories
until the sweetness is gone
and what is left is bitterness...
or is it?
I digress... I talk too much, I think too much.
so I bid my goodbyes.
Till maybe, till someday, till somewhere, till dunno.

It is going to be exam time once more, and what am I doing? Even as I speak I am watching Dragon Ball Dvds ahha. I know, its like damn old lah, but too bad, no choice, I only bought it last year. Oh well, I have decided to start studying only after watching all of these dvds hahaha, thank goodness its going to be soon. Interesting chats I have had today, such as:
Girl Z
i did this sex test thing
and i'm an average male
peng*
i'm seriousssss

-Shawn- U ignore me, I ignore U
I think tats the one I did last time
I was more girl then many other girls I knw

Girl Z
oooo
hahahha

-Shawn- U ignore me, I ignore U
we'd make a good pair then
hahahah

Girl Z
yes we do

-Shawn- U ignore me, I ignore U
I have told u tat b4
HAHAAHHAAHA
so kick Boyfriend D out of the picture

Girl Z
AHAHHAHAHAHAHA
hmm not so sure he'd be happy about that
but heck it!
mwahahaha!