Lonely

Well, seems like I'm in school... again... and alone as usual. Was supposed to meet up with someone to study with, but that person didn't turn up, and didn't let me know, as usual. It's like I'm one who can be easily if not purposely forgotten. And that, my dear readers, is one damn sucky feeling.
To know that you are making an effort to reach out but yet realise that it is taken for granted and become forgotten instead... Is it even describable? Pretend that a person is in a well, and you are there trying to help the person, the person ends up ignoring you instead. Worse still, when you feel like walking away, that person seems like you actually do matter, and you feel obligated to stay. What's up with that? Typical case of being lead on, and it really isn't a feeling I would like to recommend.
So, as I was saying, I'm feeling all confused and alone again, wondering if I'm really doing the right thing and if I'm just too sensitive or if my predictions are true. To have one happy thought can bouy many sad ones, but if the one thing that can provide you with a happy thought can give you ten sad ones as well, then is that really considered a good thing? If it contradicts its own exsistense, does it justify its presence?

Hmmm, now's freakin 3 am! And I'm writing this silly thing? OMG!!!! Ha haha!
Juz came back from the Comedy night at Hard Rock with Kumar and company... Damn funny lah! If none of u have ever watched him perform, I advise u to do so. It is so hilarious!!!! Sigh, can't remember when was the last time I had this much fun, or laughed this much. Cool experience, and I wanna do this again!!! haha!!!
Well, I guess it's time to think about the usual stuff again... But I'm trying not to be depressed or stuff like dat again. It's no point crying at adversity, nor frowning at problems. It but only takes one happy thought to bouy all the other troubles, and I hope to be able to really follow that. I wish I can jus laugh it off and think happy, cos I'm getting tired of 'crying' and I'm sure those around me are too. Have to find a reasonably happy thought now... Hmmm, if the one thing that can make you happy is making you sad too, is there a point in making it a happy thought? Does anyone have the answer to this cyclical problem?
Well, I dun even know if anybody reads this freakin page, so I'd end off now. Chow!

The beginning

Ok ok, so I've decided to try using a blog... It really isn't very practical for me to keep everything in my head cos I should be using it for better stuff like ---STUDY!!!! *sigh*
SMU is soooo tiring sia... Can't believe that I've spent almost all my weekends in school!!!! Hmmm... not that I'd have made any better use of it... but that's besides the point.
Anyway, I hope I'd be able to continue with this thingy.