Tired

Three days of fun,
tired me out,
the job is far from done,
but many more to come.
Time has passed slowly,
but yet it has passed fast,
contradictory it may seem,
but truth it is no doubt.
Exhaustion I am faced with now,
but yet I see no rest.
I kinda like it though,
to know that I can work,
that I will reap what I sow.
To push myself,
to prove me wrong,
something good,
warm feeling inside.
Of course I feel tired now,
not long will I last,
before my legs carry me to my bed,
where my head shall seek rest.

Teddy Bear

Teddy Bear,
seated alone on that chair,
lonely lonely,
don't despair,
its normal to be left aside,
to be ignored,
to be forgotten,
where rules of friendship don't abide.
Despite this though,
you stay there quiet,
offering a hug for help and comfort,
complain not,
that's what you do best,
contented you are,
when you finally grant peace and rest.
You with the two bananas,
forget not this teddy bear,
remember it always sitting on its chair.

the season of love

This here now is the season of love,
yet again I find my friends,
falling deeper into this deep alcove,
good for them,
that I feel,
but yet instead this sense of dread,
more for me than for them,
what I had I threw away,
yearned instead for forbidden fruit...
typical, typical,
grass is greener on the other side,
of which rules of love should never abide,
regret? nay, this is not regret,
but it is something over which I fret.
So is this a season of love?
I wonder I wonder...

thoughts

Chanced upon some good news of late,
things of which are left to fate.
Though it should not affect me so,
still it does I regretfully say,
so it seems that I am dealt a blow,
and it has become a sadder day.
Despite the fact it is a happy thing,
but yet I am puzzled,
puzzled at my feelings now,
at how much this seems to sting,
of the silence that then followed,
and of the unspoken broken vow.
Fear not though,
I have thought things through,
I am happy for you,
and these words are true.
Good Luck.

weekly update

The end of week is here, finally... Don't get me wrong, its not as if I had a tiring week such that I yearn for the weekend this much, but well, it just marks the end of the eighth week of holidays... leaving only ten more! Hahaha... omg, this is so dreadfully long... Someone requested that I make my entries more prosey/ poetic thingy, so I shall give a try.
Sunday.
The typical and former day thought as Sabbath for the Christians. Birthday celebration at Long Beach East Coast for my grandparents. Always a happy occasion, birthdays. The gathering of relatives, the mindless chatter of catching up. But admist all the fun and laughter come realisation. Realisation of how dumb my Uncles can be, realisation of how selfish some can be. A bill split between the 5 paying children. Fair? I think not. An aunt, not married, alone, an uncle, married, family of 5. Idiocity at its peak, forgive my angst, but agree one and all at this selfish solution to a simple question. Night falls, boredom comes, then its an outing with N for durians. A sale for durians so it seems,
a compromise of quality it then becomes;
the promise of what is bitter sweet,
disappoints us with something that is missing of taste.
Proceeded then to her house,
with cats we thought we could play,
whines instead is all we heard,
grouchy moods one was in,
with scratches and bites did she give,
thank goodness it was to N and not to me.
Monday.
Rotting in front of the com till darkness fell, when N came over to walk to YCK swimming complex to swim, only to see the gates close on us. An unlucky turn of events, a breech of misrepresentation, a wrong statement of time. So walk we did, back my place where she took a bus home. Pass my pool I went, and into it was where I ended, since Iwas already dressed to swim.
Cool water greets my face,
a chill travels through my body,
at once a calm decends upon me,
all thoughts desert my mind,
feelings fleet my heart,
Nothing like a nightly swim,
to free myself from all troubles.
Tuesday
Lunching with KY in town.
Late she was, once again,
though it was not of her fault.
Sick she was originally, down with gastric flu,
but healthy was her appetitte, which was good.
To my old office I then proceeded,
with my ex colleagues I was to visit.
Wednesday
A movie marathon this day was originally planned to be. Went to G's house in the morning to watch Star Wars 1 and 2. Such sequels should never be watched continously or face the chance of hitting the limit of monotonously themed characters running about in your brain. To think that we had originally planned to watch the whole series 1 to 6... But well, our brains and eyes couldn't take it, so we stopped to play X box. At first she told me that it couldn't work, but my magic fingers did the trick and the X box sprung to life. So we played DOA 2 till like 8 then played Shrek till 11.
Thursday
Nothing much in the morning, then S came over in the afternoon to swim. At first she just wanted to nua, but I managed to convince her to swim in the end, so we swam a short while till 5+. Hmmm, the problem is that I accidentaly passed my sis's towel to her to bathe and my sis is now quite pissed at me, oops! Nvm though, it was worth it cos it was so hot and the swim was real relaxing. Then I went off to church for RCIA where I 'pao qi' my dear A, so sorry girl! At night I went to Liquid Kitchen at Thomson, quite nice actually, till 2 then we adjourned to a nearby place for Ba Chor Mee... I reached home at 3 sia.
All in all, this has been a more activity filled week,
although much more can be done to reach a peak,
many thoughts have filled my mind,
decisions made have come to light,
some might not have been easy to find,
whilst others did not seem so right,
but in the end I am here,
and it is the end of this week,
lets all give a little cheer,
because things weren't so bleak.

update? or not

Someone was askin me why didn't I update more often. The main reason for this is quite obvious, I have nothing to say. Imagine my posts going like "I am bored", "I am bored today too", or "guess what, I am bored today again"... can u imagine how dreary it will be, not so much about me typing the same things but about u people readin the same things. Anyway... well, there really isn't anything worth me saying. Nothing interesting for now, jus the usual routine... wake up, switch on the internet connection, turn on my computer, sign on to msn, log in to Maple story, and then yea, thats it... the TV is on as well, so I alternate between reading blogs, chatting on MSN, watching TV and playing Maple Story... Its really quite boring, jus that I have no other game to play. I dun wanna spend any money either so I dun go out. Sigh, what kind of stupid life right?
I end her since I have nothing more to say, or so I think...
Oh well, what kind of update right?