KL KL

Yea, I am going to KL! Haha, what a way to waltz the time away, especially with the results to spoil my day. Crap. ~lalala~ I wonder if I am to be happy or sad or troubled or bewildered. Nvm, its the hols! Time to enjoy, and earn money. Oh man, I am really short of it... and I jus changed phone! Set me back by another 300. and the KL trip sets me back 200. Poor poor me.

Was requested by YW to blog cos she is soooo bored. Like so her lah. Got things to do, complain. Nuthin to do, also complain. Hiyah, she ah... So anyway, here goes.
School has finally ended. Thank goodness to that, yeah! No all I have left is to wait for the blasted results, find a job, and do the faci thing well. I'm starting to wonder if I am really cut out for it. Ha ha, and it is ony the first faci meeting today lor. Damn... Sorry ah buddy! I really hope I dun suck all the life from you.
Den, den... Ha ha, what is there to say? Oh yes! Last night's party. It was quite fun. Ha ha. And I won the best dressed? Maybe cos not many other guys went up lor. Jus me and another guy who looked like a hong bao. Haha, all thanks to my friends who were shouting my name. I am so so so very happy. Cos well, it was a warm feeling to have my friends supporting and that I had so many friends around? Great great. And the dancing, ha ha, was fun to have so many ppl dancing like that, especially on the table top! Cool...

School

Oh crap, I'm stuck here once again in the hell hole. Hmm, wait up, I shouldn't call this a hell hole right? Since this has become my second home, and who calls their home hell? Haha... ok, so maybe some people actually do, but I'm not that somebody, so there. Sigh... but this place is really dreadful. Hmmm, maybe its cos I am studying here that makes it a hell hole. I mean, who can deny that this place is beautiful in its own special way. The fields, greenery, *ahh* how relaxing. Walkin through the fields (or open space with grass on it, jus in case anyone wants to contest the existence of fields in the school compound) has quite an effect actually. Soothes the soul (ok, now all of u ppl shut up, I do have a soul ok, not jus a stone). Walkin with u was fun, too bad we can't do that anymore (in school at least, wonder if we'd walk on others, haha). Sigh, I'll miss this place next time. *urgh* the new campus sux. Give me a patch of greenery anytime and oh please jus get rid of that unsightly wall. Begone I say u spawn of the concrete jungle!
Oh damn, I think I am sounding eccentric once again. Its econs I tell u! its all this blasted subject's fault. To all you out there suffering the same fate as I am, my symphaties, my heart goes out to you guys; I hope u send me ur condolences too. But after this stoopied hurdle, I'll be free! Yea, can't wait... I wanna work, earn $$ to support myself, do something meaningful, although I think I cannot make it lah. Now I am looking forward to the KL trip, the faci trainings, and blah blah. Really wish to pump more life into myself or at least to make my life more interesting. Ah, I dunno, I need to practice my guitar for once, so that I can accept the compliments about my 'skills'. I know I k now, I should give myself more credit, but really, I suck. Wait till after the hols, maybe I'll be able to wear the compliments proudly on my chest. Need to practice drums too if I get the chance. I want to repaint my wall, and give it a more matured theme this time instead of all those cartoon/ comic relief.
Oh well, one can only dream. About those other dreams of mine... well, another tale for another time.

oh ho

Ho seh liao, its coming to the end of the term... means its exam time! omg.... its like one more day to my first paper, FA! Oh man, someone save me please! Then there's TWC, and Econs... Fa is taught by a dumb prof, for TWC both the prof and I are bored (he's boring, I am bored), and for Econs... I think I'm just dumb.
Hmmm to those who are around me, let me ask this, do I really have an attitude problem? When I study, do I tend to give u a black face and ignore you guys and seem real pissed off? To-whom-it-may-concern, I am not asking this qns to make u feel bad, but I just need to know this... the same way that I need to know why am I mistaken for 1.) a buaya, 2.) know many people, 3.) not shy/ vocal. I really dun get some people sometimes... I am just a simply shy person in essence, and maybe a bit more respectful to the other sex, so wth? ah crap... haha, stupid things to be thinkin about at this time.

Worries

Coming home and switching on,
logging on and signing in,
breathing in and locking on,
reading on and taking in.
Feeling worried, send a message,
receiving back a single word,
thoughts fly through a single passage,
asking not to be absurd.
Feeling low,
feeling down,
tears flow,
without a sound.

Friend, this is you, and I am worried. You know who you are, take care.

Yawn

Hmmm, so I guess the post did appear after all... after a damn long time lah. I was still bitching about it not appearing this afternoon, and that was like how many hours after I posted lah. Goodness, blogspot really takes it's time sia. Haiz.
Oh well, din do much today again, how predictable right? Haha, never was good in studying anyway. Seriously, I have no idea what the hell am I doing in the uni if I dun even want to bother studying. I'm like so going to screw up this term lah...

Cold, chilly, breezy night,
flickering, faint, wheezing light,
hopelessly grasping,
futilely flailing,
pondering, wondering, thinking deeply,
lazing, lying, feeling sleepy,
thoughts a jumble,
emotions a tumble,
heart only wants to take flight,
into the cold, chilly, breezy night.

It's somewhat weird to see how the environment can so greatly affect how we think or feel. Humans are such weak creatures, so susceptible to our surroundings, so prone to being influenced by the things around us. Never thought that the chill of tonight would bring forth this surge of emotions that I thought I had suppressed. Maybe its just the intenseness of the pitch dark night that garnered a like response from my mind, my heart. Oh crap... watever, I guess... Cya all again!

Seems like people have been wanting to see me post an entry for some time. I didn't realise that it has been that long since I last blogged. Oh well, I guess I was busy? Or maybe I just dun have anything for me to say at all. Dang. It has finally come to major crunch time, when the projects are over but all that is left is the dreaded finals. Was "busy" "mugging" in school today, but we didn't do anything. At least for me I guess... ended up transfering files and dunno what else lah. Nuthin else to blog, especially in this sleepy stupour that I am in. Ciao for now.