Ouch

Ouch. Yes, ouch. My muscles are aching. Man I must be weak, only after 3 days of that soft skills course and I am beat. My shoulders ache, and so do the muscles around my shoulder plates... Having difficulty raising my arms. Then, well I have problem sitting down cos of a pimple on my arse. Yes, I know, thats too much info... But well, I guess I sat on something hot (sue me, I have a sensitive arse, harhar).
The past few days at the course were real good. Learnt alot, not just some course to teach us what games to play, but rather teambuilding activities to aid our growth. Learnt alot about myself too, although its quite funny. On a scale of 1 to 5, 1 being poor and 5 being excellent, I got 4 for 8 out of 10 parts. Hmmm, some are interesting... Good sense of humour (lame maybe), Assertiveness (huh, me? u sure?), Intuition (hmmm, maybe...), Flexibility (haha, maybe cos too 'nua'), Confidence and enthusiasm (me? yea right... stone...), Team player (yea, I guess?), Sincerity (finally someone notices! ahha, kiddin kiddin), and dedicated to learning (this description about a slacker? haha). Check out the general remarks "You are contributing to the team but u need to be more consistent. U are a leader and able to gain respect from ur fellow members. U show promise". Hhahahahahahahahahaahaha!!!!!!!! Come on! Who's rolling over in laughter with me? Sorry to those people whom I am causing pain now from laughing too much. Made real good friends during these 3 days, never knew some existed too although SMU is supposedly smaller. Really hope we can remain this bonded. In fact this faci course was almost like a faci camp for us, minus the staying over part. So fun, would really wanna do this again. Then again, I think it's the company too that makes it so fun.
On a hindsight, I made u upset. Yea, I know, u said u aren't angry anymore, but at that moment u were, and I am very sorry for that. sigh....

Bewilderment

I am bewildered. One moment u say that u dun close friends who understand u. Den u now say u are scared of me. Make up your mind. I am not a saint. I have a temper. Just please do not stretch it. I am bewildered.

I'm really lazy

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 80%

Envy: 60%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 29%

You will die while sleeping - and no one will notice.

How Sinful Are You?

~yawn~

It has been a long time since I updated... I think. Haha, I'm not even sure. So what is there to say? Hmmm...

Watched Star Wars 3 already. It was gooood. I am not exactly considered a die hard fan of Star Wars, but I certainly enjoyed this one. At first I was worried that I would be put off by the extravagant graphics. However, the fight scenes were commendable and the story line was real cool. Yea yea, congratulations to Georgie Boy for such a great show, oh yeah!

The next day, I watched Madagascar. It was some sneak preview, and it rocks. Haha, of course that's because it's free! Haha. Being such a cheapskate, when would I turn down a free offer? Even dinner was paid for by Gracia. Ha, but that's because she owed me some cash from the Star Wars movie. Hmmm... but I think it was overshot, meaning that now it's my turn to owe her a treat. Oh no!!!! Hahaha.

These are happy days. Costly, but happy. Haha, the costliest things are travelling! Oh my, I am really so cheapskate. Well, anyway, I am happy in general. Is that quite unlike me? Please note the name of my blog "happiness and sadness"? However, my entries have been either about sadness, confusion or about boredom, rarely about happiness. However, I have told you remember, that you are my happiness? Hee. Yea, u.

I grow tired, again... ~yawn~

?

Hmmm...
I wonder...
ponder...
think...
blink...
stare...
glare...
angry...
hungry...
thirsty...
Hmmm...

more or less what I'm feeling, other than the anger part, oh, and I missed out bored

hahaha...

home

To my friend who just returned, welcome home!!!
To those who just left, come back safe,
To those who left some time back, some home soon!

For those in line 3, I miss you,
For those in Line 2, I'm going to miss you,
For U in line 1, u wun believe how much I missed u.

Home is where the heart is,
home is where u belong.

Its really getting boring

Time flows slowly,
u never realise that before,
nothing to do, nothing to think about,
no wonder time passes so slowly.

Life goes on,
following the flow of time,
never slowing, never stopping,
it's amazing how life goes on.

The clock is ticking,
the bed is calling,
and yet I do not tire,
only irritated by how the clock is ticking.

Friends come and go,
ever wondered why is this so?
how do people maintain friendship?
How is it that friends come and go?

Its getting boring,
with nothing to do, life going on,
with the clock ticking and friends going,
Really, its getting boring.

哈哈

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

laggard

HahA! I think I am a laggard sia, all my photos so late then post. lol. jus thought these were the more memorable ones. Just had dinner with a good frn, it was so fun right? Good dinner, good dessert, hey dun worry lah, u're NOT fat! the tatoo looks good, although its fake, haha! Hope it shocks ur fren! ahhaha. Glad that u were happy, thats what bday celebrations are for. Remember to keep our date hor, I'll be waiting! Lol!

last time in this SR? hmmm 

in the middle of upper quad... sigh, I'll miss this campus 

eat eat eat 

bacon and mushroom rolls! nice... 

earthquake!!! hha, or what's left of it 

haha, mercham father and daughter 

dessert at secret receipe!!!! rox 

first day lunch 

part of one supper 

first hotel breakfast 

tired

Oh boy... I am so tired. Firstly for wakin up early, den for doin nuthin. Haha, actually I was working, but I dun think I did anything, other than earning some money. Then I ran homw from the MRT station. Ok ok, it wasn't really running, and no, I did not jog all the way. I have become this super unfit bag of bones, totally not cut out for any form of exercise. Then I tried swimming after that when I reached home... cannot make it lah I tell u. so sian... oh well, I mus try to exercise more regularly now. haiz.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
Im close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

you and me

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive.
I can't keep up
And I can't back down
I've been losing
So much time.

Cause' it's you and me,
And all other people
With nothing to do,
Nothing to lose,
Cause' it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you.

What other things
That I wanna say
Just aren't coming out right.
I'm tripping on words,
You've got my head spinning
I don't where to go from here.

Cause' it's you and me,
And all other people
With nothing to do,
And nothing to prove
And it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you.

Something about you now,
I can't quite figure out,
Everything she does is beautiful,
Everything she does is right.

Cause' it's you and me,
And all other people
With nothing to do,
Nothing to lose,
And it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you...

Cause’ it’s you and me,
And all other people
With nothing to do,
And nothing to prove
And it's you and me,
And all other people,
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you.

What day is it?
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive.

Honey sugared they are not,
actions shown are all I've got.
I love it that u cannot lie,
your straightness I dun deny.
What is it u want to know,
what is it u want me show.

Looong

Ok, this is to update over the past week... hmmm, although a week hasn't even passed. Hahhaa.

On Sunday, went for this contemporary dance performance... really catch no ball. I was reducedto making guesses, albeit not intelligent ones, at what the dancer was trying to portray. Haha, anyone's guess is as good as mine, but someone says I'm the guru? *winks* Haha, nah, I'm jus really full of crap, and I jus have the ability to make it sound true. Haha. In the end though, the performances made alot of sense, and the ideas behind each one were hauntingly real and disturbing. Its like "slap you in the face" kind of reality. Really, reality bites *chomp*.

Yesterday, went for picnic in the school! Haha, what was a one-off thing became so good that we all decided to have it again. It rocks. To the organisers, salut. To the helpers who came early to help (duh), I salute u too. To the people who chose the food, u rock my socks. Haha. The goose liver pate was real good, cheese was *mmmmm*, crackers were jus rightly salted and red wine was lovely. I agree, we have to do this again, this time with caviar and sushi. Mmmmm...

And to U, it wasn't u. fullstop. it was someone else. fullstop. Although I'm glad u said that. Although this might pale in comparison to the real thing, *hugs*.

fullstop

Ok, stop. Dun think. Dun feel. Dun do anything. Fullstop.
U're tired, I'm tired, dun do anything. Fullstop.

Ode to you

I tire from walking; the raindrops hit my face.
Out here chasing an uncatchable rabbit.
I can see deep into your eyes,
like the bubbling water in the depths of a dark sea.
You're calling out to me, to me...
I'm right here.
Where, where should I go...
... to satisfy these desires?
Let's head home, and then tomorrow,
will you smile and say, "Everything is alright"?
I call out your name, your name...
I'll give you a warm embrace.
Just close your eyes and remember our happy days.

You make up for the areas I am lacking,
I've forgotten all about the sad times,
so I'm not scared at all.
Now I've lied, and I feel remorse...
somehow I've managed to grow up.
Now I feel ashamed, and nervously I sweat.
But even still, I've found a reason to continue the dance.
I scorch my soul, scorch my soul... I yell out to the heavens!
If I open that door, that door... I will be saved.
Let's head home, and then,
let's meet that white rabbit on the dark side of the moon.
Let's head home, and then tomorrow,
we'll be laughing in our bare feet,
You're calling out to me, to me...
I'll give you a warm embrace,
Just close your eyes and remember our happy days...

This was taken from the Naruto movie... how touching.
Dedicated to you, cos I think that's what you're thinking?
For now, for certain parts at least. Enjoy.

this is the drawn version of KY's bday party 

Pinnochio

The story of Pinnochio. The longer his nose, the more u know u can't trust him. Is that why I would be seen as an untrust-worthy nosey parker? When torn in between, which is better; to do as told, or to have a mind of ur own? Admit ur meddlesomeness in the matter and back out; or continue trying to prove your innocence and make matters more complicated? I am caught. I surrender. I give up.

I'm back, I'm back

Hey ppl! I'm back from the hazy land of KL. Haha, seriously man, the air there is polluted. As one of my frens commented, u pick ur nose and what u get is black snot (ok, ok, too much info, I know). On a brighter note, the food ROCKS!!!! For u ppl who know how I eat, u'll be real surprised by how I ate at KL. Ask anyone who went.
I changed from 神仙 to 食神. When we first decided on a 8 meals per day diet, I was questioning myself if that is even remotely possible for me, since I usually fill my day with 2 meals. Whilst I din exactly fulfill this 'criteria' I did do 7 meals a day. And the meals were heavy! Imagine hor-fun, hokkien mee, BBQ chicken wings, prawn tom yam, bak kut teh, satay, BBQ sting-ray, fried tang hoon, orh lua, char kue teow and frog leg porridge in that order, for one meal! Ate from 8.30+pm to 1+am I think. Power packed! Haha, and we ate snacks after that in the room. When I say snacks, I mean Lobster crackers, super rings, twistees, nuts and chocolate and beer, although I din participate in the drinking. Haha, this was for the last night in KL. I dun think I need to say more about the other days.
Oh, the other thing we did was shopping! haha, I tell u, the girls with me really shopped till the last cent... actually, we all spent till the last cent, save one person I think. I was left with 3 sen (as they like to put it in RM), and I am certain the girls spent much more than me. Haha, I think everyone spent more than me. If u looked at their shoe shopping, and factory outlet shopping... I think any non shopper would rather be shot dead. Thank goodness for my sister's, mum's and female fren's 'training', such that I din complain and found it quite fun actually (That does NOT qualify me as a girl u idiots!). Bought a jeans for myself - G-Star! Hoo boy, to think that ppl would have spent 300+ for one in Singapore when I got mine at like 80 - 90% off in comparison. And I look good in it (haha, BHB BHB!!!)
Lastly, but definetely not leastly (is there such a word?) I was able to take this oppurtunity to think things through. I realised many things that I was unsure of initially, and I embraced the truth of what I would have be afraid to do so earlier. I just hope that I do not confuse or hurt that other, that's the last thing on my mind. One word. Trust. Oh, and, Faith. Oops, thats 2 words! haha, I dun care, so sue me.