It's over
Need I say more?
Mainly used to showcase my art pieces now if they can be called such
Knock Knock
I take your hand in mine
Seems like some of my friends like this, so I thought I should share with the rest of you.
Hmmm, finally, a normal post. The commonly known 'hell week' of SMU is finally over. With all presentations and most reports over for most, the next step is only to concentrate on the exams. As such, yesterday was proclaimed to be a break day. Of course it isn't declared by the school, but it seemed to have be commonly agreed upon. For example, there was the 'Starry Starry night', a time when SMU bands congregate to show case their music. Then there's Fides exam mass. It was my Godfather's 50th birthday celebration. It was also my church friend's suprise birthday party. Some SMU friends of mine also decided to take a time out and go out. It is obvious that I only managed to 'participate' in one. Managed to squeeze 2 in the end. For family sake I went for the 50th birthday, and since it was convenient enough I went for my friend's birthday. However... my heart and mind was somewhere else since these were not the places I really wanted to be. Hmmm, sometimes I wonder what exactly we want, and who exactly are we living our lives for. True enough, our lives are ours to live, but who can say firmly and surely that they have lived towards their own dreams? oh well, no point thinking about that now...
It's back again...
Staring at my screen, my vision blurs to a swirl of bright coloured lines for essentially, that is what it is. When ur eyes break down the optical illusion the computer screen tries to present to you, you know you are too tired. However, I do not feel tired. No, I should not say this. Rather, I should say that I cannot find solace in sleep. Wait you people, I know what you all are about to say "why so depressing?" right? No no, this is not depressive. Far from it. Ok, maybe not far, because that would mean that I am happy, and I can't stamp down my foot to proclaim that that is what I am. Instead, just take this as ramblings of a tired mind. This is the time where you see poor tired souls of SMU, fighting to stay awake, fingers flying over the keyboard, eyes straining at the screen, overheating their arse by sitting in one never changing position. 32 at 3am, 19 at 4am and 13 at 5am, all from SMU. To think that these people can reply promptly enough when I message them, it speaks volumes about the current state of SMU students. I am probably one of the few people up at this ungodlyhour with no apparent or rightful reason to be up. I blame it on a long and restful sleep the night before. Is this all? Naye; Oh how I wished it was so. I ponder about what I want to be, who I want to be, how I want to be, where I want to be. Of course I would be plagued with who I want to be with, how I want to be with her, where I want to be with her, and what I want to come out of being with her. Please do not misread, I mean 'her' here as just a representation of a female, a reassurance to others that I am not gay, and far from it. Urgh, I feel miserable... only because I brought it upon myself.... what do I do now? stay awake till I go to school? or not go to school and let this whole cycle of playing cat and mouse with my sleep continue? I implore thee, sing for me, a morning lullaby.
Ponder ponder,
I am getting tired.
To all you ppl readin this,
I see you lined up in neat rows,
To you whom I had mudpie with:
what is the point of