apart from the fact that I am fine

I am fine.
Apart from the fact that I am acting weirdly
Apart from the fact that I am thinking too much
Apart from the fact that I am starting to crumble inside
Apart from the fact that I am unable to do what I am supoosed to
Apart from the fact that I am beginning to regret what I haven't even started
Apart from the fact that I am probably going to worry everyone reading this blog
Apart from all this, I am fine.
Really.
This will pass me by.
I am fine.

Hands

In my hands I hold,
The hands which are comforting to hold,
hands warm and tender.
The hands I wish to hold,
hands small and vulnerable.
The hands of the one I love,
hands that I want to hold forever.
In my hands I hold,
My everything.

I think this is quite a nice poem, lots of meaning.

I wanna hold your hand

how now brown cow

oh my, wat have I done now
I know not what to do
I know not how to do
I know not why I do

stupid stupid stupid...

stop, turn, leave... I wish to drop all things and do this

retreat, regroup, rethink... is this even necessary?
won't it jus be for a lost cause?
tail between legs I run,
afraid of what I dunno
faced with adversity I shrink
thoughts of failure befall me

But despite all these one thing is clear
I am a slacker, and I'd rather ignore than to run or face the foe
then with all these whines what have I to say or do...
in my tired stupour, I can only murmur,
How now brown cow?
How indeed....

ramblings

sometimes I wonder what I am doing
sometimes I wonder what I am thinking
then again, if I knew, then I wun be wondering

It's weird how on certain days u suddenly start to ponder
ponder about what life has to offer
what u have to offer to the lives of others

we try to bring joy to those we love
we never intend to hurt those dear to us
we do so with no expectation of a return in kind

or do we?

people, being human, get jealous
people, being human, are vain and require attention
people, being human, are greedy
people, being human, just want to be loved

"The greatest thing one can ever learn is to love and be loved in return"
familiar qoute from Moulien Rouge?
I think this is not really true.
"The greatest thing one can ever learn is just to love with no expectation of love in return"
Now that is what we should all learn
Me included.

Your Birthdate: December 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading. The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

Hmmm, I never knew how true this could be, haha.

why

senseless

no intention to initiate what?

dun wanna start why?

I'm regretting it already really?

Qns...

"why do men like smart women? - Because opposites attract"
This was what I saw on my friend's nick, quite obviously a girl.
Then this idea struck me.
How true it is... its like the similar question :"Why do ugly women like handsome men?" Because opposites attract. And we see this so often along the streets of Singapore... Of course, this is in accordance to the theory of relativity where one party would be better looking than the other. This is to justify why there ARE couples who are both good looking or at the other end of the spectrum.
I used to rely on the theory "beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder" to explain the above said phenomenon. Then, I realised that there is another statement "love is blind"... haha, so what does that say about lovey dovey couples? They both think that the other party is the most beautiful person alive... cos they are blind? Hmmmm....

something

Something is getting me HOT and BOTHERED

Only problem is...

I dunno what it is

I wish I knew

BUT I Don't...

ah, watever... screw it

wat's wrong

haha, dun worry, this ain't a depressing entry, jus a fagotty one haha. Juz watched wedding crashers, great movie I tell u guys. Sure it was damn funny in the beginninng although it was a tad uh-hmmm kind of humour (revert to previous entry about one other movie). But the really funny thing is that I felt like tearing for the better later half of the movie... Not because I wanted to sleep or what... but I dunno... Its jus the references they used and the things they talked about... I just felt touched somehow. Yea yea, real wussy entry, haha, I agree... Just thought I should blog about it since I have been blogging about weird incidences lately anyway. Wonder what's wrong with me?

damn funny

This was taken from one of YW's friend's blog, really funny.

On why woman are bad drivers
In conjunction with Wen's "tyco" passing of her driving test on the first try, lets ponder upon the abominations of the roads of Singapore...WOMEN!

Men step on their brakes and scream. Women scream and forget about their brakes.
Men keep one eye on the road and one eye on hazardous women drivers. Women keep both eyes on the road and crash into places like her house gate...Mmm
Men take bold turns into main roads and avoid stopping and waste time. Women check north south east west then stop suddenly and later scream at the poor guy who knocked into her backside.
Men pass their driving tests by outsmarting their testers. Women pass their driving tests by outdressing their testers. (ok shoot me for this, i juz wrote a sweeping statement)
Men get into accidents more. Women get into less accidents as they are the cause.
Men signal just before they turn or overtake. Women signal and take forever to move.
Men speed and get fined. Women drive on the right shoulder at 50km/h.

However, I expected u to pass YW, so I'm not as bad as ur fren eh? haha

another interesting day?

Hmmm, had lunch today with Sue Ann and Nat. Both told me the same thing, haha, how… interesting? I am just thinking what they both said, or rather the fact that they aren’t the only ones telling me that. Also, something Nat said made me go do some… “research”, and now I know what happened, more or less at least. Hahaha, oh well… I guess I can only wait and see if the story will ever be re-told. But somehow, it seems as if I have already been told this story by someone before… how interesting…

movie night

After a loooong time of not watchin a movie (the last I watched was Madagascar), I finally went to watch Deuce Bigalow 2! Haha, its a damn funny show, but to those weak in mind and faint of heart, please dun watch it (basically it means if u're as innocent as Yv, dun watch it). Yeap, that's right, this movie date for the night was cringing during the show and it made me feel soooo bad. Wah, I will have to think twice about what movies I invite her to watch in the future sia (provided we watch together again). Thank goodness dinner was fine... although since she wanted to rush off to catch the 815 Corpse Bride as we had originally plannned I ended up forgoing my Coffee and Dessert... Then we bought the tics for the 930 Deuce Bigalow so we had so much time to burn, we ended up eatin dessert at Big-O. Argh... waste my free dessert! haha, ok lah, the mudpie we shared (Frankenstein 2) was good... really big and filling, thank goodness we shared. Now I finally know where Balestier/ Whampoa is... not as far from my place as I thought it was, judging from the taxi fare I paid.
Oh well, 'twas a good night. Enjoyed myself and thankfully she did too.
Ok, next time Corpse Bride, no changes to any other movie lest it turn out to be some wrong movie again. Haha.

a day of compliments

today has been a weird day for me. Just came back from retreat over the weekend lah... then guess what someone told me today. One of my female friends (attached) said that I fulfill her criterium of boyfriend requirements as follows:
1. Good brain (which she says I show via good memory)
2. can play a musical instrument
3. tall
4. Ok, this is the stunner. I look cute. Like HUH?!?
haha, this is really a joke lah.
Then I went for FT dine out today. And I can't remember what I said, but a girl mentioned I am sweet...
Lastly, I was sending my friend back and she was askin me funny questions.
She first asked if I was attached. And my reply was that I never have been.
Then when she said I was picky, I said that I guess I can't make it.
Then she asked if any girl has liked me.
I told her I dun think so, or at least not many. And I said, not likely cos I dun have the calibre.
Obviously I got the standard "why do u think so lowly of yourself" thing.
And she commented that she likes my character and the way I carry myself...
Like me being hmmm... gentlemanly? and I credit it to good upbringing?
Haha, she even commented that she notices that I am usually politically correct with regards to talkin to girls. And she likes the way I am careful with words?
Haha, what a day...
so many compliments of sorts in one day.

Children's day

Yesterday morning, I woke up early for school, again...
Met my mum in the kitchen, din say much.
Left shortly after, din think much.
In the afternoon I got this message
"Shawn, 4got 2 wish u happy children's day. Love mummy"
how sweet...
sigh...
One can only hope to fathom a mother's love.
Ugh, I sound sappy,and wimpy, haha
Oh well, to all the other wussy kids out there,
Happy Belated Children's Day